~Cleonique

Im almost DONE with school, just the hymn and social work exams and thats it !!!
I have major work to do right now, I have 2 entries to the National Art Pageant here in Honduras to do (I hope to win X3), one is drawn but not yet painted and the other one, blank...and there due May 30th X_X but Ill make it but thats not it...I have like 8 portraits to do and 1 remake of a drawing of mine..all sold, so Im pretty busy this days..but thats great
Besides that I already know where I am going...SCAD everyone accepted me, even RISD but in the end SCAD gave me a $20,000 scholarship (the biggest scholarship in there yay!) so it became the most affordable one of all. I didn't know anymore if that's where I wanted to go when I was applying to all those colleges, but I have made my decision. I dunno If I'll like it, hope I do if not well, I can always transfer, my Ringling application will remain open so thats one of my options...but in the end I know that it is not the school that will make me an artist, its me and the way I will use what I'll learn to further teach myself. When it comes to art, it has always been only me and no one else and that will never change...I have never depended on anybody to make this dream come true and I will not start now. College is only the help I need to get there, and I'll try my hardest to make the most of it

School is hell!!! omg!!! and college applications just make everything worse ;_;
I already applied to SCAD, art institute of Boston at Lesley college, art academy of Cincinnati and RISD(finally finished the 3 fugging drawings from hell!!!) and I am probably gonna apply to Art Center and Ringling. SVA too but for Spring semester...not fall like the others....I am wondering, which one has the best illustration program ._. hope someone can help me with that hehe

I just really cant wait to leave this damn school because I hate it with all my heart!!!! I just want to scream till my lungs burst I can't even describe how much I am suffering dammit!!!!! worst year ever! I have been under HUGE pressure since december. Damn...just hope to make the deadlines and be accepted and get a scholarship so I can afford w/e college I want to attend....almost there I guess..not yet, but I still try to have some certain amount of hope left in me...somewhere...

Dammit...I hate school...I have so much pressure
I need to do my portfolio to apply to universities and such between oct. and dec...
and I dunno, I think Im not artist material yet maybe someday
Until then Ill have to keep practicing, doing my portfolio, university stuff, going to social work, trying to have the highest average possible, try to have fun in some way
...I just hope I dont kill myself in the process

Well, I needed a new journal update..SO here it is XD
I was tired of seeing the other one hehehe

Damn there almost over....
I cant believe this!!!!!!!!
this is so damn sad

I have only 3 weeks left of freedom...
well, at least I would be out of the house, which a couple of weeks ago I was going CRAZY at!! but now Im kinda used to it, and kind of enjoying it a little...well the new wii makes it all better X3 but I need more games...but I have no money...and my parents dont let me get a job or something..shit...But when school starts I will have money!!! I might die of hunger...but I would have money YAY!!!! XD

Well!!!
I hate this...I try to do my best effort to create something good!!!
but no one likes it...XD I want my art to be appreciated here in DeviantArt
but I guess it is not as easy as it sounds. My last work took me a while and I was really proud of it! but guess no one else liked it XD but NO!!! I dont care Ill get better and someday my art will be appreciated T-T I know I draw lots of garbage and stupidities XD But!!! Ill do my best to do something more elaborate next time. In my last work, Practice, I worked a lot on the hair hope it was noticeable XD, so Im getting there ppl T-T youll see how good I get in no time especially now that I have photoshop!!! yay!!! my last work is actually my 3rd photoshop work. I guess that for a third piece without previous photoshop knowledge aint that bad. I try to be a fast learner. Yes!!!! besides I need my portfolio to start applying for college..so youll see more of me soon I gotta keep my optimism high!! and cultivate my creativity until my brain gets drained