Hello ,
I haven't updated in a friggin long time now so..updates...if anyone ever reads this
WELL, second semester in SCAD and I'm happy X3 too cold dammit but I am surviving it though. I didn't like my last quarter's projects, too boring, just still life's and simple projects for 2-D design. I liked the last 3, but I forgot to scan em >_> so now they're stuck in Honduras...oh well. BUT I am updating now some projects like the last two, Harmony and Discord. I'm trying to find my own style, as I will be an illustrator and painter one day Hope to be able to dig into it more, hope people like it as well D:. And now I am currently working on another project, hope it turns out ok . I am having a hard working time here in SCAD and I love that, I just need to keep up, I love this college, so happy I came here X3 but I miss my boyfriend so bad D: niuuuuuu but, just another 4 months or so to go I have to be MEGA strong and get mega good by the end of my first year , wish me luck

and..THAT IS ALL!
for now and maybe in a really long time as well hehehehehehe
ciaup, more to come from me, hope u like it too

Im almost DONE with school, just the hymn and social work exams and thats it !!!
I have major work to do right now, I have 2 entries to the National Art Pageant here in Honduras to do (I hope to win X3), one is drawn but not yet painted and the other one, blank...and there due May 30th X_X but Ill make it but thats not it...I have like 8 portraits to do and 1 remake of a drawing of mine..all sold, so Im pretty busy this days..but thats great
Besides that I already know where I am going...SCAD everyone accepted me, even RISD but in the end SCAD gave me a $20,000 scholarship (the biggest scholarship in there yay!) so it became the most affordable one of all. I didn't know anymore if that's where I wanted to go when I was applying to all those colleges, but I have made my decision. I dunno If I'll like it, hope I do if not well, I can always transfer, my Ringling application will remain open so thats one of my options...but in the end I know that it is not the school that will make me an artist, its me and the way I will use what I'll learn to further teach myself. When it comes to art, it has always been only me and no one else and that will never change...I have never depended on anybody to make this dream come true and I will not start now. College is only the help I need to get there, and I'll try my hardest to make the most of it

School is hell!!! omg!!! and college applications just make everything worse ;_;
I already applied to SCAD, art institute of Boston at Lesley college, art academy of Cincinnati and RISD(finally finished the 3 fugging drawings from hell!!!) and I am probably gonna apply to Art Center and Ringling. SVA too but for Spring semester...not fall like the others....I am wondering, which one has the best illustration program ._. hope someone can help me with that hehe

I just really cant wait to leave this damn school because I hate it with all my heart!!!! I just want to scream till my lungs burst I can't even describe how much I am suffering dammit!!!!! worst year ever! I have been under HUGE pressure since december. Damn...just hope to make the deadlines and be accepted and get a scholarship so I can afford w/e college I want to attend....almost there I guess..not yet, but I still try to have some certain amount of hope left in me...somewhere...

Dammit...I hate school...I have so much pressure
I need to do my portfolio to apply to universities and such between oct. and dec...
and I dunno, I think Im not artist material yet maybe someday
Until then Ill have to keep practicing, doing my portfolio, university stuff, going to social work, trying to have the highest average possible, try to have fun in some way
...I just hope I dont kill myself in the process

Well, I needed a new journal update..SO here it is XD
I was tired of seeing the other one hehehe

Damn there almost over....
I cant believe this!!!!!!!!
this is so damn sad

I have only 3 weeks left of freedom...
well, at least I would be out of the house, which a couple of weeks ago I was going CRAZY at!! but now Im kinda used to it, and kind of enjoying it a little...well the new wii makes it all better X3 but I need more games...but I have no money...and my parents dont let me get a job or something..shit...But when school starts I will have money!!! I might die of hunger...but I would have money YAY!!!! XD